This is it.
This is the moment where I decide what I want to do with this "chaotic instagram".
I don't want to invest money in photography technique and absorb photography from others. I really don't.
I don't want to invest in a studio, I don't have the money to invest on that.
I don't want to be on a Photography club. I really don't have the time.
I don't want to post Photography so people can Like my pictures and forget a couple of minutes later what they saw. I really don't.
I don't want to write stupid things that would only make sense if I read them. I don't.
What I want, what I aim for, is the kind of photography that represents part of my reality, the years of light (2004-?) - with spots of darkness- a portrait of my life and how I look at the places and the people that I meet. It is a photo-biography, it isn't art, it was never about that.
Lately, I regret I not having the time to reflect, pause and press the shutter in the way that I'd love to. I've compromised.
I became comfortable with the idea of pushing the camera away and enjoy a conversation with friends and forget about the composition, the angle, freaking number F.
I confess I don't even know how to develop my own prints. I shot in analog rarely and never managed to print in my own studio. Really. You can't call yourself a photographer if you've never done that, so I'm not a photographer.
Am I a digital photographer?
Can I make pictures? or just take them.
This is it.